Kym herself (the brains behind Sock it to Me) got my name in the sock exchange and she completely spoiled me! Look at the beautiful socks she sent me!
Here's what the note Kym included said:
"Butterflies for Toren, a new car for taking the wheel of your new life, and ballet slippers for the hopes that not only will you walk in heels again, but that you'll also be able to gracefully dance when life keeps you on your toes"
I have already found great comfort with these socks (I had to wash the race car ones before the photo shoot!). While my socks will not be worn in stirrups anytime soon (if ever), outside of my annual gyno visit, they ready for visits with lawyers, divorce finalization day (thinking positively here, I don't know when that's actually going to happen), and for those days when I still feel sad (happens more than I like to admit so luckily there are 3 pairs of socks!).
2009 was a really diverse year for me. The year started out with me longing for my husband to realize that he loved me and return home - THAT feels like a long time ago! I rented out rooms in my house so that I could afford to pay the mortgage. I started DATING, and ended up with a BOYFRIEND. And, something that was not written about much here, I began opening up to my family and sharing some honest thoughts with them, which I have not done as an adult before and never would have without having "practiced" on y'all.
You all, my blogging friends, read along and offered encouragement and advice through that emotional year, and never did any one here express frustration that it took so long for me to move on from Toren dying and from my husband leaving. That has been vital. Probably only through the patience of listeners who understand that some losses just hurt for a very long time was I able to start reforming my life.
Starting this anonymous blog and "meeting" so many great people has truly been a beautiful experience.
With so much grief worked through, in 2010 I am able to participate more in life, in blog activities (such as SITM), and offer the view of someone who has survived the initial, crushing heartbreak of losing a baby in supporting others. And of course I'll still be bitching and complaining over here! I still have to get divorced! And this lousy depression lingers on so certainly more pity party posts are predicted (although I hope to actually recover from depression this year).
Anyway thanks everyone for reading along and commenting - it has meant so much. Check out the other SITM posts here. And, the adorable dog in the photo belongs to one of my housemates and her name is Diamond :)