I wonder if I will ever re-gain my pre-deadbaby attention span. I feel like I will NEVER be caught up with tasks at work, home maintenance, housekeeping, paying bills, homework (why did I decide to take a class?), and the list can go on and on but I'll cry before it is complete. Of course I probably will get everything done eventually but it feels impossible right now. This is different from the early days when there was so much grief that nothing outside of Toren and my husband really deserved much of a thought. Now thoughts of Toren are quiet for the most part, although still nearly constant in a weird way, but actually completing tasks takes way longer than I would like. The tornado is over but residual effects remain in the form of persistent depression and a lack of efficacy. Is depression causing decreased concentration and memory, or is feeling so upset over being confused and behind causing depression? What role do the anti-depressants play? Sigh, I just don't know.
What about you? Can you concentrate?