Wishing you courage

"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying 'I will try again tomorrow'."
- Mary Anne Radmacher

Thursday, April 21, 2011

TMI + grumpiness

Ahhh, nothing like waking after a night of cramps and thunderstorms to the first period sans birth control.  We are not TTC quite yet but it's still disappointing that there wasn't an accident.  And terrifying.  The wait to see if I'll have trouble conceiving is terrifying, because I don't have a plan for coping if a rainbow baby with my rainbow partner does not work out.  I can't imagine losing hope again. 

Gushing blood, eyes tired and puffy from lack of sleep and a short cry before getting out of bed, cramps, hoping for a short day at work but then finding out I'll be attending a late meeting for my boss, and then not one, but TWO emails announcing the births of healthy baby boys!  Isn't life funny?!

Excuse me while I laugh myself straight into the looney bin.


Jenn said...

Sending you big hugs! What a way to start the day. xx

Ya Chun said...


And I'm sorry, but I just thought "rainbow partner" was hilarious and such a good way to look at it.

Sounds like you need a nice warm heating mat.

Quiet Dreams said...

Those birth and pregnancy announcements so often come at just the wrong moment for me.

Hope you feel better soon.

Sophie said...

aaaawwww crap. Sending you lots of chocolate vibes and big warm hugs. I hope your big rainbow sends you a little rainbow soon... so I guess you guys need to be cooking up quite a storm... ;) xx

Kakunaa said...

Ugh...boo for AF. I'm sorry :-(