That last post was not nice and I want to clarify that I'm not making fun of her. If you want to show off your rose garden, go for it! The funny part is just that I so desperately want to have no contact with my ex-husband but it got to the point where I wondered if NOT avoiding him and NOT ignoring his attempts at "friendship" would be get me closer to closure. I'm trying out not being unfriendly (which is different from friendly).
And then I get invited to his girlfriend's vajayjay's birthday party.
What is an appropriate gift?
There is no way for him not to annoy me. There's too much history and too much hurt.
So today I laughed at myself and at this absurd situation and at how much of a prude I am sometimes and it was all okay.
Then I was in a rush to have dinner with friends and quickly showered at the gym after squeezing in a workout, reapplied make-up and struggled to look presentable with flaky skin from acne medication AND new breakouts and suddenly it all felt like my fault again - I was never fun and confident enough to do a panty-free photo shoot so my marriage ended. It often feels like I was left because I wasn't adventurous enough. Even though he creeps me out now and I do not, do not, do not! want any sort of relationship with him, I still feel like tossed out garbage.
I'm working on it.