Wishing you courage

"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying 'I will try again tomorrow'."
- Mary Anne Radmacher

Tuesday, March 17, 2009


There I was content, helpful, and generally kicking ass at work when I get the e-mail stating that one of our part time students won't be able to take one of our difficult REQUIRED courses this Fall because his wife is having a baby on October 9 and he will be too busy with work and the baby to take the course. Whatever whiner, delaying graduation for another year is cool with me.

This explanation is fine for most people but it is not work appropriate for me! I'm just trying to get through each day and be successful at work and I really wish there were not reminders of what a huge failure I am at having babies and keeping husbands. On this floor of the building alone there are 4 growing bellies - a new one was added just this week (so early on that it could be just fluff, if it weren't for the tender belly rubs going on).

Most of the time now I don't get overly distracted by other peoples pregnancies. I sit on the other side of the room, only look at them from the shoulders up, close my office door when I need a break, but pregnancy news coming through e-mail kind of snuck up on me.



Sara said...

I'll growl with you since that's two days from what would've been my due date. Fuck him!

Zil said...

Growling is allowed...as is screaming, cussing, and throwing things. I've been known to do all - and even several at once.

Meg said...

Wow, that sucks. Sorry you got ambushed on your own computer.

debbie said...

What a bummer! That's just shitty, and I totally agree with you that it's a lame excuse not to take a required course.
Today, I was at work and a pregnant attorney was sitting in the courtroom with her skirt hiked up and her shoes off--while court was in session. Awesome. I had no idea being pregnant meant that a person could do whatever the eff they wanted to. :)

Sophie said...

I don't think you're a failure, Anna. I think you're stronger than you think you are.

Thinking of you, and hoping I never say anything that hurts you.

Aleina said...

It's kind of sad, my first reaction is "well, October is a long time from now." anything could happen. It probably won't, of course, but it's the only way I can survive pregnancy announcements at the moment.

Thanks for stopping by my blog, by the way! ;)