Tonight I selected a Cabernet Sauvignon named Parallel 33 S, thinking it was good inspiration to contemplate parallel lives. In a parallel universe there was a known price for that wine and it was purchased instead of a lovely Malbec. Without getting deep into the theories, Hugh Everett III proposed that there are other universes, just like ours, except that different things happen, which would make each universe evolve differently. Critical events may not happen to *you* in some other universe. In some other universe you are raising that lost baby. In some other universe Toren is alive and my marriage took a turn for the better and perhaps in that universe I did not get laid off from my job, which indeed did happen here last Thursday.
The weekend went ok but Monday arrived with a new kind of blues. The lay-off was unexpected (but not surprising in hindsight) and sudden. Just like that I have nowhere to be anymore. Worse, just like that, they took back my ID, office key, and I still need to return to my office to pick up personal items, while supervised. This is so humiliating. Even though it was not performance based, I feel really lousy that a relatively small amount of money (I was not paid very well) was selected over keeping me around. I didn't get to say goodbye to anyone, after working there for 6 years, and now I don't want to run into anyone from there because I'm overcome by shame.
This much shame...
BTW, chocolate and wine is actually a healthy way to cope in my book, as long as it's occasional. On another day I'll talk about how I WILL NOT let losing a job where I was underpaid and going nowhere professionally get me down, in the meantime any stories of finding work after being laid off would be appreciated. Anyone have any advice on job hunting, or even getting through tomorrow?