Wishing you courage

"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying 'I will try again tomorrow'."
- Mary Anne Radmacher

Tuesday, May 31, 2011


Did you know that Elvis Presley had a twin who was stillborn or died at birth?  The grave markers of both of Elvis' parents list them as the parents of Elvis and Jessie.  I almost lost it; it was stunning to see that you can have freaking Elvis Presley as a child and still never, ever forget the child that died.  We really are in it for the long haul, huh? 

But it's also encouraging to see that it's ok, and normal, to remember the babies who so quickly fade out of the memories of others.



...Seeking grace...

For a while you worry that you will forget, but that doesn't happen.  Now, it's not so much that I worry that I'll never forget but I worry that some of these feelings will never end.  I worry that I'll pretty much not give a shit about a lot of things ever again; things that used to be so important like credit scores, being successful and having lots of friends.  I worry that it really was from something that I did and that I really don't deserve a living child.  What if whatever the future brings is just a continuation of that sad story?  I'm concerned that a big comeback into living fully is not going to happen.


Kristin said...

I knew Elvis had a twin but I never really thought about it like that...wow! You know my prayers are with you and I will abide and remember with you.

Sophie said...

You know, I'm not even sure I am living fully... :( Rainbows help but there is no going back to that place we were before our losses.

You deserve a living child Anna. You absolutely, positively deserve a child. What you didn't deserve was to lose one.


Anonymous said...

Indeed I knew that. Elvis was my hero when I was a kid and somehow I thought about it quite a bit how he must feel about his brother (guess I was too young to think about his parents's feelings).

Yeah, we're in for the long haul... no matter what's to come. Second Sophie's statement and sending much love! xoxo

Quiet Dreams said...

I had no idea about that part of Elvis' family history.

I haven't been through the kind of loss you have, but I can't imagine that it would be any other way. How could one ever forget?

Vicky said...

You haven't posted in a while. Hope everything is ok.

Catherine W said...

Just stopping by. Hope all is well? I did know that Elvis was a twin, it was part of the section in my twin books about raising a single twin that I decided to skip. Gah.

I don't know that I will ever make a big comeback. Maybe more of a gradual lurk?