Wishing you courage

"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying 'I will try again tomorrow'."
- Mary Anne Radmacher

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Foul mouthed RANT

fuckyou
fuckyou
fuckyou
fuckyou
fuckyou
fuckyou
fuckyou
fuckyou
fuckyou
fuckyou
fuckyou
fuckyou

No, not YOU! Funny that I'd never actually express this to the people who have swept my breath away.

Fuck you, collegue who is acting like I've stepped on her toes when I have busted my ass to cover for her.

Fuck you, friends who break up with boyfriends, have a huge freak out, frantically date others, sleep with ex-boyfriend, get back together with ex, THEN REPEAT THE PROCESS OVER AND OVER.

Fuck you, people who nod in understanding, knowing that is the "right" thing to do, while obviously NOT truly listening and NOT understanding.

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What is my problem?

I can't think of any hormonal, nutritional, sleep related problem that could be causing so much grumpiness. Huge, unhappy back spasms though. Headache from pollen. But nothing that should be causing so much discontent.

I'm teettering on the edge of telling someone off - it's kind of funny, but I wish I knew what the real problem was.

If I hear "Against All Odds" in a public place today there is going to be a scene! Watch for it on the news!

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How are you all doing today? Happy? Content? Sick? Mad as hell?

6 comments:

Sara said...

Today I'm doing ok, but man oh man have I been where you were: days where I would feel so much better if EVERYONE GOT PUNCHED.

I finally saw a psychiatrist to have my meds checked and got an official diagnosis of Generalized Anxiety Disorder. So hopefully that will get taken care of eventually...

Sorry it's one of those ragey days for you.

Ya Chun said...

:(

hugs

Gad, GAD. I think we all got that here in DBL. It should just be an auto-diagnose as we leave the OBs office... anyway

I got some knots out of my back this am at the PT. That makes me feel much better. Soooo, I would say, treat yourself to a massage, even if they are too expensive. Let the therapist massage away your frustrations for an hour...

oh, now I want one.

And gad, I am glad I am on self imposed locked down so that I don't have to deal with too many people.

angie said...

SO funny. I think about that scene from Half-baked when he quits his job: Fuck you. Fuck you. You're cool.(Old hippie gives him the peace sign) Fuck you.

I'm in an "AAAAAAAAAAAAh, fuck me" kind of mood today myself. I think it is the other side of the Fuck you day...not sure hugs will help for you today, but you can kick my shin if you take your shoe off.

angelseashore said...

I would love to say a big fuck you to lots of people but can't. A boy that I work with who is autistic makes a thumbs up sign and thrusts it up toward the sky - that means you can kiss it, I'm not listening to you or doing any work. So, secretly, I walk around making that sign in my head as I encounter everyday idiots. I know how you feel - completely. Keep ranting girlie.

Sophie said...

I've been sitting on this all day... I'm not sure how I feel today. A bit so so, I think.

Sorry you are having one of 'those' days. I get those now and then too.

xx

Monica LeMoine said...

A beautiful, fuck-filled rant. Thanks for fuck-youing on behalf of all of us. ;-)