Distractions are requiring more effort. He's close. It's been almost three years since I held him and I still miss that tiny boy.
Anybody watching Sister Wives? I think I saw every episode last weekend. It's such a different lifestyle than I have ever personally witnessed that I had some judgments but after watching hours of it, I like that family. They are all very open and will express hurt feelings but there also seems to be little "game" playing - they will apologize quickly after saying something that may have inadvertently caused pain. It's interesting to see how the wives interact and I love the idea of a large, close-knit family. Now, I'm still bitter and not a fan of marriage but being able to watch a show about lots of marriage, where there are also tons of kids, is a sign of progress.
A few weeks ago I watched Juno on TV, after avoiding it since it's release. It was better than I thought it would be, but not in the ways I expected. I thought the teenagers were more annoying than funny and I didn't like the soundtrack at all (it was very popular though; I'm comfortable with having bad taste in music). To avoid spoilers I can't say what I liked about the movie but if you have seen it you may have figured it out - families don't always occur as expected or planned but families that are well fought for, and are built under conditions that are not considered "ideal" can be stunningly beautiful.
This resonate with me because I did everything "right" in terms of a long, seemingly stable, marriage and a house and what not, but the baby still died and then everything fell apart. Aiming for what is commonly viewed as the best way to go about things is not the only way to find happiness and fulfillment. I have to believe that alternative ways are also good.
Rambling. I'm so tired I'm not even going to edit this. So, polygamy ... what do you think?