Wishing you courage

"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying 'I will try again tomorrow'."
- Mary Anne Radmacher

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Incredibly random post

My new-ish neighbors' dogs howl when they hear sirens. I wonder what the dogs are thinking. Do they howl because they are inspired to sing by the loud shrieks of emergency vehicles or are the unnerved by the sounds hitting their sensitive ears? Then I realized that I felt like yelling with the sirens.

"Someone's hurt, someone is hurt!"
"help help help help help help send help!"
"Oh no! Oh no! Oh no!"

Because someone's life may be falling apart at that very moment. Someone may not live. Someone's house may be burning down. Someone's child may be dead. Someone may be on their way to becoming as lost and lonely as me. That all freaks me out right now.

If you hear a news report of some woman in the South hauled into a mental hospital after being found pacing her garden, yelling with sirens, while wearing boxing gloves, please send cards of encouragement! Appropriate sentiments would be "hope they don't throw away the key!", "They say you need a lobotomy, it could be worse!", and "good luck with your crazy roommate!"

Seriously though, I did see a card that was a divorce announcement. It looked like a "normal" card on the front cover and said something about how life has to change and move forward and then on the inside it says something like "Just wanted to let you know about my divorce". Maybe I'm just ultra sensitive concerning divorce but that card did not impress me in positive ways.

I feel like I could go on and on with random thoughts. Maybe I'm lonely. I'm going to a real life support group tonight and hopefully spending time with women who "get it" will calm me down a touch.


Rebekah said...

For a long time now (even before Levi) I always say a prayer when I hear sirens. Now especially though I wonder if someone's world is collapsing as I hear the noise. Luckily I don't live near a hospital so I don't hear sirens often but I really worry when I see multiple emergency vehicles at once.

Meg said...

For some reason sirens don't usually bother me, all except fire trucks. It makes my stomach ache. I don't know why. Maybe now I do. Hope your support group goes well and they "get it". :)

kay said...

Dear Annamarie,
I too always have fear sirens when I hear them. I hope your support group goes well, and hopefully they "Get It", just as we do.
I have also sent you an email of Toren's name by the sea, I hope you like them. xxxx
(PS: Please let me know if you haven't received my email)

Ya Chun said...

Picturing you pacing in your yard with boxing gloves made me laugh. sorry....

a divorce announcement? huh. Do they expect presents or something?

But I guess it helps prevent social faux pas.

how was the support group?

Is there anywhere you can go that is a big meetup place? The one community garden I go to is nice for that, even if it is just hello's.

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